Published: 07-02-2021
Updated: 27-07-2021
Here are my thoughts on our existence, our spirits, our souls, our egos, and the paths we can take in life. It’s good to know their differences, so read carefully. I will explain how I think certain people become capable of horrible things, while others become their opposites. It will be a lot to take in. I hope you can read between the lines and see my attempt to reconcile the spiritual with the physical world. Whether you take this literally or as a model to describe reality is up to you.
Every newborn in this world is born with a spirit. I call this spirit ‘the spark of life’. A spirit is different from a soul, but they are related. This spark isn’t something physical. Imagine it to be something metaphysical, or metaphorical – whatever you’re more comfortable with. All life-forms have this spark. A spark will re-spawn many times, spread over many ages. From the day we’re born that spark blossoms and gives rise to our soul. This soul envelopes the spark, protects it, and starts making connections between its spark and this plane of existence. Each soul a spark gives rise to is unique, and is a reflection of all the souls previously hosted by that spark. This new soul will further connect the spark. The spark carries with it all connections between it and this world made by its previous souls from previous incarnations of the spark. At some point in our life we become aware of our spark. For most this happens early in life, but not for all. This isn’t limited to us humans, but us humans are prone to awakening. Becoming aware often happens when we fall from grace but the spark itself is pure and free of sin.
The gallery below are life-forms I’ve encountered in the forest area near my town of birth. They illustrate the abundance and variety of life.
For us sentient beings the moment we become aware of our spark, our choices influence our soul and with it our spark. We can either grow the soul, or digest it. Because we are conscious, we make our choices knowingly. We are aware of our choices. We can make two kinds of choices. We can make choices motivated mostly out of love or out of fear. The choices we make come with consequences. We are free to choose but never free of consequence. When we accept those consequences, our soul grows. When we refuse to accept them, we digest our soul. During our lifetime we will go through periods of making choices mostly out of either fear or love. We need to make both kinds of choices in our life to understand the other kind of choice, and ultimately ourselves.
Connections are made when we accept the consequences of our choices. This grows the soul and makes us ever more conscious of ourselves and the world. Some consequences are very easy to accept, while others may be very difficult. Accepting consequence is like facing yourself. If we reject the consequences of our choices, we become less aware and lose sight of ourselves. Rejecting consequence is like running away from yourself. It hurts the soul, and it starts to shrink, digesting itself. It may even become wounded. Wounds on our soul damage our ability to self-reflect. There are many ways by which our souls can be wounded, like dealing with loss, but a healthy soul will recover in time from these kinds of wounds. In time the consequences will be accepted and the wounds will heal. But if new wounds persist because consequences are continuously being rejected, healing can’t keep up and the spirit can walk a dark path. Healing a wound on the soul takes time, while wounding it can be done in the blink of an eye.
When our soul stays wounded in this manner and our mechanism to self-reflect starts to break, it gives rise to the ego. The ego will ease the pain of the wounds. It compensates for being less able to asses the self. The more badly this ability breaks, the bigger an ego emerges. The bigger the ego, the more in pain someone is. The ego needs others to measure its own sense of worth, and does so in a naive fashion, substituting a falsely acquired reflection as proof for the supposed true image. The ego casts a pretend measuring tool to measure the self-worth by praising the self to others, presenting an over inflated imago, and pushing others down. It does this in an effort to convince the self it is worth more than the self thinks and feels it is, all to hide from others it’s actually wounded.
But it is a self-defeating mechanism that can sometimes spiral downwards in severe cases. The ego temporarily alleviates the pain of the wound while widening it, mandating a need for the ego to grow bigger to counter the pain of the growing wound. As the ego grows, so does the wound. The only way to stop this process is to face the self and confront the consequences of life. This will heal the wounds. Some of the soul is digested, but the gain is invaluable. The healing of a wounded soul will transform the pain into wisdom. Healing is one of the most important ways for us humans to grow wise. Every time we heal a wound on our soul the pain turns into wisdom. The more people have healed, the wiser they are.
Those who accept the consequences of their choices will know love and will be loved. They are unique, creative, honest individuals, fun to be around, and above all they are often wise. They take responsibility for their actions. They have great empathy and help others grow their souls. Those who reject the consequences of their choices have no real idea what love is. They conflate power with love and aren’t loved. They are mostly all alike, have little creativity, are generally dishonest, are often unwise, and they can drain the energy out of everyone in their presence. They don’t like to take responsibility for their actions. They have no compassion, manipulate other people and can hinder others from growing their souls. Most of us are somewhere in between these two extremes of acceptance and rejection of consequences.
When we continuously reject consequence the wounds grow deep and that can eventually expose the spark. If a spark is exposed too long or too often, it will die out. The flame perishes. Its connections gone. This is very bad as this process transforms it into a new entity: a spirit without a soul, which is an evil spirit. All past wisdom and connections are lost. A soulless entity is no longer conscious of themselves. They do not self-reflect any more, as they are incapable of rendering a true reflection. This is an evil entity that will live their life like a bulldozer driving through a warehouse full of antiquities. Everything in their life is ultimately pointless and damaging to others. They are the demons of this world, walking the physical plane of existence. They only live to grow their power. They refuse to confront themselves and will do anything in their power to live free of consequence. Only the most frightened and corrupt will become their servants.
Walking the Earth influencing other souls without accepting consequence is not allowed. The only way these demons can ever hope to break this circle is when the angel of death collects them and they are forced to make their final choice; to face our maker, or be cast into hell. Both are very frightening experiences, but the one that can bring redemption is also the most difficult. These souls don’t want to confront themselves, because they don’t want to see what they’ve become. But if they can find the will to step into the light and be judged, they’re shown what they didn’t want to see during their life. It is the most frightening experience they could ever have. These souls will experience the accumulated pain of everyone they’ve ever hurt. Pain they would otherwise not have had to experience if they had compassion in their lives, which would’ve allowed their souls to experience the pain they’ve dealt others through empathy, and by doing so had formed the connections for these experiences.
It may take a fallen spirit in death a long time to step out of the darkness, but redemption will come for those that endure. Those that do not choose redemption will become the ultimate evil. All connections they’ve made to this world during their last life will be severed. This being can no longer be called a spirit. You could call it a true demon, but it’s all semantics. It is best described as a will completely void of compassion and with a very strong hatred for existence as a whole. They are the whispers in the ears of the fearful, tempting them to abandon grace, or simply trying to terrify them for their own pleasure. I’ve had some encounters with these kinds of beings in my dreams. They’ve stood at my bedside on multiple occasions, when I was often paralysed to some extent; a phenomenon described as sleep paralyses.
In my dream state I am strong willed, and though I feared them, I have defeated them quite often. They feed off fear. It is their life force. They are very powerful beings, but they’re evil only second to being afraid themselves, and they fear those who see them for what they are. They are simply perpetually terrified of those that confront them with valour. Those with strong resolve, an iron will, a wish for defiance against evil, and strong resilience against corruption, bare the hallmarks of Angels. For these demons, a confident entity is a mirror reflection of all that they’re not, and reflections are something they cannot cope with any more. That’s what made them this way.
Some people in the living world are tempted by corruption more easily than others. Some dwell in fear and are susceptible to the dark whispers. The elites of this world are especially susceptible because of the choices they’ve made. They are the real world equivalent of the demons from any scripture or story. They are consumed by the fear their power will diminish, so they do what they can to keep and expand that power. They have so much wealth they can arrange their lives in such a way they don’t have to take any responsibility. They buy up or bully their competitors and critics into oblivion by pushing their wealth around. They have armies of high grade lawyers at their disposal, and if that doesn’t work they can silence anyone they want by any means they have. They have gone far many times, and will not tolerate anyone presenting them a mirror.
I worry about our society greatly, not just because of the rise of technocrats, but also because what I see happening on my own social plane. We live in a world where the rating is more important than the service, the grade is more important than the effort, identity is more important than character, and perception is more important than the truth. Altogether these are all branches of the same problem; we’ve grown to value pretence more than reality. What I’m saying is basically society has become like the ego. It tells me our society is wounded, and its spark is exposed. It’s trying to heal but the healing can’t keep up with the rate at which new wounds are made. And social media is at the heart of this problem.
Modern day society is built in such a way that it feeds the ego. Social media – by design – makes us reliant on external confirmation and this damages our ability to self-reflect. I myself saw social media be born and come to rise. Our children know it only to have existed, and will not understand the times before. Children these days grow up on social media, and large egos arise out of thin air. These children know only the quest to further feed the ego, completely unaware of the self and the self-reflect mechanism that lie beneath the surface of their existence. On social media we celebrate the ego and suffocate the real us. When we learn to only see a pretence version of ourselves from the eyes of others we’ll risk losing the ability to see our true selves from within.
I see many people around me that don’t believe in themselves. People who don’t believe in themselves will value pretence, which in a way is an effort to have other people believe in them so they can experience a surrogate version of self-confidence. But the experience is only temporary and self-defeating. Believing in themself by faking it makes them believe even less in themself than before. They will need to fake it harder and more often, while also turning a blind eye to their own behaviour, slowly dismantling their ability to self-reflect. In these conditions the ego thrives. The individual becomes a shadow of the person they actually are. These people may come across as quite confident on the outside but are deeply insecure on the inside.
In the old days only dictators could give rise to the egos we now see all around us. In the modern day world of ego fed social society – with social media at the heart of this – children risk growing up to be truly unable to self-reflect and understand true empathy. As their tendency to serve no one but themselves gets stronger, it will slowly overshadow the development of their empathic abilities. In their adult lives being friendly simply becomes a means to further fuel their ego, and other people are either objects to fulfil this goal, or obstacles in the way of it. It makes me wonder if maybe finally we’re going to see the rise of the generation that will bring down humanity, because without compassion, a human being differs little from a parasite.
There is reason for hope. We all have the power of choice, even the worst of us. In the end there is no such thing as honest or dishonest people. If there was, and an honest person would claim to be dishonest, they would in fact be dishonest, but if a dishonest person confessed to be dishonest, they would in fact be honest. Think about it, there’s another layer to this little thought experiment. My point is that if one can switch between, we can assert there are no honest or dishonest people. Sure, people will probably gravitate towards honesty or dishonesty, but everything is ultimately a matter of choice, and everyone has the power to change. So although it might help to see the world in such a way, there is always a chance – however small – people may change for the better. Who knows, with enough willpower a fainted spark may reignite. And we all harbour somewhat of an ego. Even the best of us. There is no shame in that.
To be completely fearless is to be God himself. To aspire to be honest and fearless is to walk in his wake as an instrument of all that is good. Those who feel fearless because they’ve arranged their lives to endure no consequences temporarily experience what it’s like to be godlike. But to try and be dishonestly fearless in this world by outrunning the consequences of your choices is to walk in the shadow of the devil with a god complex. Nobody who hungers for power is actually fearless. They just fool themselves they are. The only way to fool yourself is if you don’t see yourself. They live the illusion of fearlessness, but are actually the most frightened people on Earth.
Whether we are aware of it or not, we are always at war with the forces of hell. Not just outside of ourselves, but also within. The way to win is by honesty and compassion. It is the only way. In order for this world to change, we must first change ourselves. We can do this. Whether you’re reading this fully aware, or mending a wounded soul, or even nurturing an exposed spark, it relates to you. If you’ve read this far there is a good chance you feel connected to it. That’s the real you, learning something about yourself, and in a way you are now facing yourself by that. Come into the light. Read and live by the ten commandments of this work. Join yourself on this journey. You are beautiful, and you can be a force for good.
~reckneya